It has been beyond hard! Well, the first couple of weeks weren't so bad because it was nice to not have to wake up early for school and I had lots of fresh ideas of fun things to do with the kids. Jeff started working from home and so he could be around here and there if I needed him. But it didn't take long for this to get very very old. I miss my time to myself. I miss the gym, having my separate time with each of my kids. I miss hearing about the fun things the kids did at school or with friends and not having to create all the fun. I miss babysitters and going out to restaurants with Jeff. I miss feeling anything but exhausted and unprepared for yet another day of the exact same thing of kids whining and being bored. I miss hanging out with people in real life and not having to worry about staying 2m away. I miss going to the zoo or even a park with the kids! I'm writing all of this because I think it's important to write down my true feelings even if they may not all be positive. It's been tough! I absolutely love my kids, but I don't think any parent is meant to be stuck in a house with them 24/7 with no help allowed. Of course Jeff is a great help, but he works full time still, and is also as exhausted as I am.
I have my bad days, and I think that's okay. However, it's also very important to look at the positives in life. I have been so blessed to have these amazing kids in my life and they are really good kids! We are all healthy and that's amazing. We have awesome family and friends who we can still talk to on devices or from a distance, and we have had many wonderful people (especially grandparents) drop off treats or activities at our door. It could be worse - I could be sending my husband off to war. My husband still has a job and is still making money through this. There's really so many things that make me realize how lucky we are. Also, focusing on my kids and helping them learn what they might learn at school has shown me how I can be more involved in their learning in the future and it's bonded us and been fun (when Leo isn't destroying everything...). I've been more creative. I've worked out using the 21 day fix work out videos even more than usual. Jeff has experimented with some baking. I've been cooking lots but we decided to order food in every Saturday and that has been something really special to look forward to!
Anyways, I've taken lots of pictures of some of the things we've been up to. First off, some mask pictures to remember this time! How cute are these masks my mom made? And some wrestling pics of the kiddos!
One night we set up the tent in our basement and the kids slept in it. We roasted marshmallows on our little fire thing that Kellie gave us and had smores. We turned on the fire on the TV too and each of us took turns telling stories that we made up. Eyeballs became a funny inside joke for our family because of it! We sat in the dark with flashlights. It was a fun family time together, and the kids slept really good that night, even though I was worried they might get scared in our basement.
For General Conference in April, we ate german pancakes for breakfast with fruit and bacon. That's kind of become tradition! I also made cinnamon buns for the first time ever and they turned out really good! Conference was a celebration of Joseph Smith's first vision that happened 200 years ago. It was also unique because of the virus, there was no audience for the prophets and they gave their talks in a smaller room with only those speaking distanced beside them. The tabernacle choir did not sing, but they played older recorded songs for the sessions. They also announced a new proclamation about the restoration and did a hosanna shout.
The first picture here is how Jeff and I have felt these pass few months!! Haha. I wouldn't have wanted to go through this with anyone else though, and I'm really grateful for him and all that he has done to keep our family afloat. I couldn't have made it through without him. We've tried to do some date nights after the kids are in bed in our home, and we also love to sneak out for walks around the pond after they're in bed.
Leo has grown up so much in the last few months, I can't even believe it! He started talking a lot more and copies a lot of what we say. His favorite or most common words are shoes, socks, shirt, more, open, apple, cookie, and wow. He says a lot of things though, and his voice is just the cutest thing I've ever heard! Sometimes he does this little pucker with his lips, and it honestly melts me. He also loves cooking with me and always wants to be up on the counter watching and helping. I always find an onion or potato (those are the things he can reach in the pantry) in a little pot on the stove. He really wants to cook by himself! He absolutely loves food, and has always been a good eater. Although it's hard to keep him fed enough! He loves being outside and exploring, and he loves water. He also likes to get his way, so he can be tricky if we need to leave somewhere and he isn't ready. He throws a good tantrum. He's also learned to climb out of his crib, even with the mattress on the floor. So, he's now in a big boy bed and isn't at all ready for it! He usually naps still, but it's definitely a lot harder to get him to sleep these days. Some other things I love about Leo are his dance moves and how quick he is to dance when he hears music, and his sweet cuddles and kisses. I also love how gentle he is with things when you say the word "soft."
Jeff's birthday came and we tried to make it as special for him as we could. Cindy made her beef stew that he loves for dinner and the kids and I baked a chocolate cake. I got the kids to make some cute crafts for Jeff, and I think he really liked Bentley's book. It was a book called "My Dad is Rad," and she drew pictures and wrote things that she liked about him, or answered other questions. It was cute because after I put it together, she did it all by herself. It was a lot of work for her, and Jeff loved reading the things she wrote and seeing her ideas of how to spell it out. After the kids went to bed Jeff and I made some mocktails together! I had two recipes ready so we made a mint lime mojito and a fruity drink cocktail. The mint lime one was so good! We squoze a bunch of limes, added some sugar and mint leaves, and then let it sit for an hour. Then we took out the leaves and added ginger ale. It was amazing! The fruit drinks were also good. Jeff appreciated my idea, it was the only thing I could think of doing at home! I'm running out of ideas!!
Mother's day was on Sunday and I had a really good day. Jeff let me sleep in while he made breakfast with the kids. Then we visited both of our parents with muffins and notes to drop off. We social distanced visited with both of them for a while and it made for a fun day! I love all the mother figures in my life, and I couldn't have asked for a better mom. I'm so grateful to be a mom to 3 healthy, beautiful kids.
I splurged and bought the kids some roller blades. I was getting desperate for entertainment! I don't regret it one bit though. They love those things! Bentley has actually gotten very good at it, and Deacon may not be the best yet, but he sure never gives up no matter how many times he falls! We've been outside on the path, but it's also nice to have a basement to practice in.
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